More often than not, people tend to lose control of themselves be it in the momentum of leading life or keeping up with certain task of life...I am not spared from going through the same state of idleness in my life...of late, I reckon my life has been about thinking, weighing, accepting, rejecting, being accepted and at the same time rejected...I cant blame fate for going about that circle because I believe it is meant to be but what I couldnt digest and forgive myself is that, it affected my mind and heart thus affecting my productivity as a person and an employee...I realize as time passes and I become comfortable with my whereabout, I forgot to uphold the principle that I always hold in my mind and that is to keep my head in the game and always be at the top of it...I lose grip of fulfilling my task whole-heartedly as most of the time, it was all about going with the flow...I thought I was jaded but I was not, I just forgot my standing because I was comfortable...Alhamdulillah, I have great environment around me...regardless the fact that I have screwed up some part of myself - my performance and all (that I am not proud about), people are still forgiving and always open for amendment...my apology to all...I am certainly not proud of my behaviour and all I could offer are my apology and my promise to make things better by improving what is lacking...2 more months to go before I bid farewell and all that matters now, I am more than motivated to leave positive trail of my existence instead of the opposite...again, I am very sorry from the bottom of my heart...~