Life is not easy to begin with…eventhough my number of experience is not comparable to others who have gone through more than I do (my prayers are on all of you – be strong), I believe I surrender from thinking too much…if I were to go to the ground bottom of certain matter, I could go bonkers… I admit I am not an easy person to live with…I could be easily influenced by my feelings especially when it comes to personal matters…of course I do maintain my sanity when I am working and try my best not to intertwine both matters…I am grateful to the mercy of Allah S.W.T for keeping me grounded and knocking great senses onto my mind all the time…I am more grateful when He put me in this great state of a lifetime when He arranged my meeting with helpful and insightful person that I know today… I learnt a lot and all I hope for is that I have become a better person, of course within the scale of imperfection… I believe my upbringing and others are not the same. Hence, different people come with different understanding of certain principles and beliefs. I surrender to the part where every human being has flaws and that does not exclude me. However, how positive I am trying to be, to be able to accept and live with that fact of life, as a normal person, I am not free from being affected by certain matter, leaving me as a person who is full with angst. (My apology to all – for all the bitterness and hardship that I’ve caused at your expense) Since I am a lone-ranger who relies on friends most of the time, they have been burdened by my accumulated stories of some figures in my life that have put me in great state of psychological agony. As I ponder, I have become a different person and not a good one. When I choose to isolate myself during my undergraduate life, I thought I would be free from certain people as I only keep good friends close but that idea was fouled as circles of friends didn’t just stop there. Being manipulated and used left me again, as a more angry person. As I repetitively mentioned, I am glad I have great positive thoughts supplier who has kept me grounded and toned down my angst each time she told me stories and I learn from every single line of her quote. Therefore, I choose the easy one today – not to think and move on. To all my negative affluence, please stop and that is all I hope for. I am tired of being angry. I am done doing tango with you. I shall smile because I choose to live at ease. I shall accept you as you accepted me.~